New Anxieties

I used to feel fine enough
Until you showed up
Standing at my door in the light of the morning
Carrying the last straw

Now there’s nothing I can do to lose you;
On like a tattoo, following my instincts
Thinking all the worst things
I don’t even want to but

I can’t help it even though I know I should
I can’t stand it; how I wish, I wish I could
Bringing up these old tears, battling these old fears
I can’t help it, these new anxieties

Take a breath in and out, am I in control now?
Should be counting blessings but I’m just obsessing
I gotta slow it down

Thought I’d be further than this; had a great therapist
Days getting longer, rooms getting smaller
The walls are closing in

I can’t help it even though I know I should
I can’t stand it; how I wish, I wish I could
Bringing up these old tears, battling these old fears
I can’t help it, these new anxieties

And I try, but it all goes by so fast in my mind
It multiplies

I can’t help it even though I know I should
I can’t stand it; how I wish, I wish I could
I can’t break it, caught up in a spell so clever
I can’t shake it, even though I should know better
Bringing up these old tears battling these old fears
I can’t help it
These new anxieties
Bringing up these old tears
Battling these old fears
And new anxieties