Nevermind

[Intro]
I build and I build
Just to break down
I feel how I feel
Ain’t no way out
There was pain in my past
And there's pain now
No sunlight above me
Just rain clouds

Older but I'm in the same position
Poser, I act like it's fine — it isn't
Can't come to terms with my past decisions
Trauma's a picture, a lasting image

[Verse 1]
What can I say?
I'm just doing my best
Alone in this world
And it's hard to accept
A ghost in a shell
I ain't hard to forget
I know I mean well
I got heart but it's dense

Unstable, I'm lost
I'm all over the place
Unable to face
The mistakes that I made
There's things about me
That I wish I could change
At the end of the day
I just hope I'm okay

[Chorus]
Nevermind love
Nevermind trust
Nevermind me
Nevermind us

How can I think about anything
Other than everything?
I been through way too much
I just want things to be easy
I don't want to feel so extremely
Exhausted for once

I just want people to see me
And realize I'm not the person
They thought that I was

[Verse 2]
What's it gonna take
To get me out of this cycle
Of only feeling present
When I'm starting to spiral?

When I hurt myself
It's like I'm checking my vitals
So maybe I'm alright
Ain’t felt alive in a while

When I was just a kid
I thought my future was bright
But now it feels like it's impossible
To walk in the light

Cuz when you're trying to survive
You either fight or take flight
There isn't time to thrive
When you got a lot on your mind

Am I breathing or not?
Do I really exist?
Or is it all a dream?
Will I wake up from this?

Digging up my grave
Jumping in an abyss
Getting in my own way
I got problems to fix

Nothing matters now
I gotta focus on me
You're at a different stage in life
If you know what I mean

I gotta find out if there's color
That I just couldn't see
Or realize that everything's
As dull as it seems

[Chorus]
Nevermind love
Nevermind trust
Nevermind me
Nevermind us

How can I think about anything
Other than everything?
I been through way too much
I just want things to be easy
I don't want to feel so extremely
Exhausted for once

I just want people to see me
And realize I'm not the person
They thought that I was

[Verse 3]
So many noises
Can't turn off the voices
I swear they're like poison
Affecting my choices

Controlled like a puppet
Don't know how to function
Without being manic
That's called self-destruction

This phase isn't over
I can't even fake it
A smile on my face
Is a special occasion

There's tears in my eyes
On a regular basis
No peace in my mind
I ain't felt that in ages

Novocaine running through my veins
I'm becoming numb
You don't wanna know
About the place that I'm coming from

You don't wanna know
About the demons that I'm running from
You don't wanna know the real me
Cuz I'm one of 'em

Carrying weight
But can't lift up my spirits
They judge what I do
And they judge my appearance

Just leave me alone
Cuz I don't wanna hear it
I'm tryna get by in this life
Perseverance

[Chorus]
Nevermind love
Nevermind trust
Nevermind me
Nevermind us

How can I think about anything
Other than everything?
I been through way too much
I just want things to be easy
I don't want to feel so extremely
Exhausted for once

I just want people to see me
And realize I'm not the person
They thought that I was