Never Together

You’ve met my mom a few times
Tell me that I look nice
Waiting to kiss
But you close your lips
We hug and it's a sucker punch
Wake-up text, I’m day drunk
Wanting to kiss
But you close your lips

You’re checking all my boxes
But somehow you say
It's getting claustrophobic

If this isn’t love
Then what have I been dreaming of?
And if it never was
Then why the hell does it hurt this much?
So what if we make each other better
I miss you like crazy, I can't take the pressure?
But if we were never together
I guess this isn’t breaking up

I’m always last to leave your house
Call you when you’re feeling down
Got something to say
But I pull away
You’re telling me about someone else
Dinner table, heart melts
It’s not fucking fair
I pretend not to care

I’m checking all your boxes
But somehow I feel
Like everything’s one-sided

If this isn’t love
Then what have I been dreaming of?
And if it never was
Then why the hell does it hurt this much?
So what if we make each other better
I miss you like crazy, I can't take the pressure?
But if we were never together
I guess this isn’t breaking up

We can keep watching our tv show
Even if Carrie cuts deeper than you could know
It’s hard not to feel like some day we might
When you keep me at arms length but hold on for dear life

If this isn’t love
Then what have I been dreaming of?
And if it never was
Then why the hell does it hurt this much?
I want to believe that this isn’t love
That I’m reading in, that it’s not enough
And it never was
There’s no reason to hurt this much
So what if we make each other better
I miss you like crazy and can’t take the pressure?
But if we were never together
I guess this isn’t breaking up