Never Thought

[Verse 1: CJay]
I'm the sole lonely loner that you neglected
You didn't see my true colors until that fucking Rubik's Cube connected
95 percent of my life I've been sad and gloomy
Wish that I can truthfully say that I had a dad that knew me
So guess who taught me how to be a man
Go figure, not these broke niggas; my mom didn't need a hand
That's the true meaning of being a single parent
I don't agree with these so called father figures that's incoherent
Loving at night but you were scornful the morning after
Can't ignore disaster; ain't no shame I was born a bastard
Bet I could travel the world in a month
Touch the clouds but still wouldn't get the girl that I want
Now my head losing it; look in my bed, who's in it?
No one, so I'm in my room RedTubing it
You trynna be harder than I the harder you try
Aren't you high bitch I be that star in the sky

[Hook 1: CJay]
Never thought I would be the only one
I Never thought I would be the only one
Never thought I would be the only one
Never thought that I would be the only one

[Verse 2: CJay]
Yo all I see is me; some people say I'm a selfish man
But you gotta do it yourself cuz nobody will lend a helping hand
Growing up I didn't have nothing
I can't afford it so every little thing I get I'm thankful for it
Been grinding, what's on my mind is I deserve some respect
Work till the death and I won't stop till I worked up a sweat
Life is a giant middle finger; all I get is a fuck you
There ain't a father figure to look up to
A single mother, a little brother, an older sister
Cold as winter so when you gone who the fuck suppose to miss you?
Besides your blood and the one above
Getting my heartbroken made me realize that I don't wanna love
Unless someone does have love for me
I will enjoy your company, what else more do you want for me?
I said I will enjoy your company what else more do you want from me?

[Hook 2: CJay]

[Verse 3: CJay]
Can you envision a man with a plan stranded on an empty road
Bag full of clothes but he barely knows where to go?
All he knows is where he's headed, he has a destination
A couple people that chose to follow him but the rest was hatin'
Told em' it was his time but he had no estimation
Impatient he wouldn't stop until he sees the death of Satan
So he continues to thrive while others make it hard
Some say it's odd, every morning and night he prays to God
Asking why my people trapped in the ghetto
Half of us rebels and you wonder why they strapped with the medal
I thought an officers job was to protect and to serve
Instead of doing that all they do is arrest and disturb
And on top of that it's impossible, how can we survive a 9 to 5, including feeding a family of five
So keep your head up and strive and never let up inside
You will rise whether you're dead or alive
Right?

[Hook 3: CJay]
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