Never

Most of my life i got flipped on my ass
Never got a job or license got no bread or gas
I was constantly chasing my own past
Cause i never had a childhood that could last
In my mind i wasn't good enough
I thought i had it rough because i refused to talk to anyone
Lived in a city that didn't sell no gun
Hid in a corner never tried to be on the run
When i smoked it left those spun and stunned
As i question and wonder about those who are shunned
But my mom told me hush
You're just having another sugar rush
As i blush i was completely flushed
I wasn't ready i was completely crushed
So i talked to myself to occupy
Practiced yogi bear and phillip j fry
Caught off guard made her cry
Proud of me but never said why

Never proud of myself and wanted to die
Never spoke up cause the truth felt like a lie
Never wanted to end up being high and dry
Never wanted to sigh and say goodbye
Never proud of myself and wanted to die
Never spoke up cause the truth felt like a lie
Never wanted to end up being high and dry
Never wanted to sigh and say goodbye

I lived in isolation wiping dust off baseboards
Hoard and organize changing plenty of hidden cords
If you never question the lord you'll get an award
By staying here and dying by the same accord
As fears are always amplified and never dignified
Lost in the tide as i can't confide
On what always feels like my last ride
I swear i tried
But as time went on i lost my pride
With fits where i cried
Times where i've lied
It all hurts inside
That's why I'm always fried
I hate myself but time is moving too slow
Ideas off the shelf going any direction to go
With all of them lined up in a row
But i don't know
I just wanna make sure
I don't go
Too low