neurotic solitude

Feel so cracked, my mind been wrecked
Yea im feelin like im fallin apart
I been crackin at the seams for way 2 long
Why do i give so much, like where does it go?
Jus a bunch of fckn egos in the end
Nd i can't let go cuz im my friend
Im the catalyst for whats in my head
Am i the catalyst for all of my death?
So much red, how did i get here?
Am i makin sense? hope im makin sense
Losin sense of self, it dont make sense
He cried hexen, he was a heretic
Nd then he got wasted, over nd over
Nd over nd over nd over..
Fucked up, so many ways
Been so many days, all i do is disassociate
Wish i could say fuk fate, hate where its takin me
Tell me, why shouldn't i?
Tell me, tell me.. why shouldn't i wanna die?