Neurosis

This all has become a blur / And you ask how I live like this / Everyday a new story to tell / With all the people I am dragging to hell / I swear I am okay / There is no return from here / The voice whispers to me / "Hold on tight, you'll be done soon" / Father, father help ease the pain / Hold me close and keep me sane / This is all a dream as it comes to haunt / As my lies come forth, this season grows cold / I wanted to live a life like you / Like you see everyday / But just like you, no one wants to care / And I swore I'd get better with this age / But as it all unwinds, I'm just reminded / That I'm fading fast / I'm fading fast / If you saw life through my eyes, you would understand real fear / Manipulate the mind of the innocent / You'll be done soon /The words I refuse to speak are the ones that you want to hear / If you saw life through my eyes, you would understand real fear / Another day I walk with my head hung low and my empty soul / People look at me like I have something to give, but I am nothing like you / Sick and tired of feeling like everything I give is nothing at all / Where do you find the medium of death and happiness? / Maybe this is just me in my head / Just like you've always said / I can't even begin to tell you the shit I've seen /Let's keep that between you and me / I'm lost inside