Need Now

[Verse]
They know and I know that one day I am gonna reach my goal
I'm patiently waiting, but at the same time, I don't wanna take it slow
Oh I know that sometimes I gotta do this shit alone
Sometimes I gotta travel a thousand miles from home
Sometimes they don't love me but they really love my zone
I be telling them we aren't really friends
If behind closed doors, you talk like a foe
Hating ass homies and stupid ass hoes
Leaving you stranded with nowhere to go
I don't really care if you think that I'm cold
Even under the pressure, I promise no fold
Yeah, 'cause they know and I know I'll better myself
And I'ma shoot for the stars, meanwhile they dropping like shells
I speak what I feel, keeping the music so genuinely real
Why keep on knocking when you know what's the deal?
With no backup, I'm taking the wheel
Lion's the sign, so I swoop for the kill
Better said, I'm suited to do it and get what's mine
Everybody wanna shine, nobody wanna take the downtime
I write alone 'cause I talk to myself
I don't wanna bother, so I don't ask for help
I don't wanna bother, stay trapped in myself
I'm taking out the water, I'm still drowning in this well
Killing the devil 'cause I could be hotter than Hell
I'm not worried of being all alone, I'm really more scared to fail
Sacrifice what I got with the world and got with a girl
I'll go with these punches, take all these hurls
It can get rocky and I could get hurt
Nobody liked me so I'm proving my worth
I would sit in the office with a ripped-up shirt
Her son getting in trouble, he don't like it when they try to treat him like dirt
And now they know he gonna go hard on every verse
Only time for breaks is to breathe
I would look in the mirror with the blood in the sink
Was brought up in a unstable relationship
But I think I'm stable enough to know my direction
Rather be living now because there's no resurrection
Only resurrection is in your reflections
Everybody dies and I'm no exception, I'd rather accept it
I don't wanna die where I started, they think I'm gone and departed
'Cause I'm not concerned about anything but going the farthest
I've been pushing myself to ultimately better things
In love with the rapping like we had a fling
I guess that's the reason everybody hated me
Because they knew that I was born to be a king
It was also to tear me down so I could build myself back up
And be my back now, so I'm back now
I'm walking and walking, they only gonna see my back now
Moving at a higher level, yeah, they know that I'll be here for infinity
'Cause I'll cave in before they try to take me out
Did it all alone so maybe that's what I need now
What I need now