Natalya

[NATALYA]
AND I WILL KISS YOU ON THE TOP OF YOUR HEAD
FOR THAT IS THE KINDEST PLACE TO PLACE A KISS
THE MOST REVERENT
COMPASSIONATE
AND DEAR

I AM A JOYFUL PERSON
AN OPTIMISTIC PERSON
BUT SOMETIMES I GET SCARED
YOU'VE BEEN DROWNING SO LONG IN YOUR OCEAN
WHAT IF MY BOUNDLESS JOY HAS A LIMIT AFTER ALL
AND I'M NOT THE ROCK YOU NEED TO SAVE YOU

YOU ARE IN A HOLE
AND SO I JUMP INTO THE HOLE
BUT I CAN'T GET YOU OUT
YOU ARE IN A HOLE
AND SO I JUMP INTO THE HOLE
BUT I CAN'T GET YOU OUT

HOW MANY TIMES CAN I ANSWER THE SAME QUESTIONS
HOW MANY TIMES CAN I SAY THE SAME THING
THE SAME THING
WHY DON'T YOU JUST SNAP THE FUCK OUT OF IT
YOUR DARK UNKNOWABLE DEPRESSION
YOUR FANTASTIC SPIRALING BLACK VOID
ISN'T IT PATHETIC?
ISN'T IT A CHOICE?
CAN'T YOU DECIDE?
I DON'T WANNA THINK EVERYTHING I KNOW THAT YOU ARE TERRIFIED I THINK

YOU ARE IN A HOLE
AND SO I JUMP INTO THE HOLE
BUT I CAN'T GET YOU OUT
YOU ARE IN A HOLE
AND SO I JUMP INTO THE HOLE
BUT I CAN'T GET YOU OUT

OH ​MY BIFURCATED GENIUS
HOW I WISH YOU COULD HEAR THE THINGS YOU ARE
WHEN YOU'RE BURSTING AND BLEEDING
SHAKING AND SHINING AND SHATTERING
HOW CAN YOU KEEP THAT INSIDE YOU?
HOW DARE YOU HOLD YOURSELF DOWN
WHY DON'T YOU JUST SNAP THE FUCK OUT OF IT

GO SCREAMING ON A CLIFFSIDE
​GO RACING IN A THUNDERSTORM
​DO DRUGS IN THE DESERT
​​SEE VISIONS IN BLACK SMOKE
HAVE AFFAIRS
CRY CONFESSIONS
DO WHATEVER YOU NEED TO DO
​TO MAKE YOURSELF WHOLE AGAIN
​GO SHAVE YOUR HEAD
AND ​RUN WITH THE BULLS
​
JUST DO IT QUICK
​BEFORE I GET SICK OF YOU
I DON'T EVER WANNA GET SICK OF YOU

I KNOW I'M SUPPOSED TO BE THE BETTER ONE
BUT THE TRUTH IS I'M NO BETTER THAN YOU