Narcisissm.

They love themselves so much they blinded to my self hatred
Writing words don't matter when I been burning pages
I don't understand why you continually take shit
Down because you don't get it that shit outrageous
Endless perceptions they wreckin yourself again and again
Until it ain't nothin left you don't got nothin to stand
For no matter I ain't named like a wifi track
They mad at me I'm in the pit the suicide at that
I don't feel happy and it's probably slowly killing me
I'm drilling deep down to the core like Pop Smoke, this shit healing b
I'm alone most of the time don't got people to trust
After abuse from everyone it ain't shit that i won't bust
I don't care about my family it ain't shit done through blood
Make a bond if you actually care otherwise you're done
I'd rather hate you from a house than love you from my damn grave
R.I.P. to Reckful shit it should've been me
It ain't shit that I ever feel like I'm in the mirror still worthless
If I was my crush shit i'd probably fucking curve me
But it don't matter take the world and throw it off my platter
It ain't no one in my corner and the punches coming faster
I ain't rocky if I die I die but won't no one remember
Let my existence burn down until i'm nothing but an ember
I won't arise again
I don't even want to
I been tired for 2 years
What makes you think I want you
To numb the pain is my goal
But does it work almost never
Got suicide on my mind
It is my one last endeavor