My Truth

[Verse]
I wish somebody had told me that it would get this tragic
Now I'm spinning out of control amid a silent panic
How long this road? I stay slipping
There goes this will that I'm gripping because it's clear that I'm tripping, accumulating baggage
When I'm sitting in my room reflecting solemnly
I realise my life has turned out nothing like I thought it'd be
Hear it audibly, calling me my depression is taunting me
See the man in the mirror [?] bothers me
I learnt my hardest lessons sleeping down on Alex's floor
It's not always about the talent but who wants it more
I left the house a broken kid so we weak and insecure
Back to settle the score for those I'm breathing for
They may say it a million times but me I mean it more
I let the truth speak aloud like ain't that what the speaker's for?
Write bars for you but seems it's me that needs it more
All I know is deep flows, the boys never seen a shore
The year away from school taught me more than you'll ever know
I started questioning my life and if I'd ever blow
My girl saw a side of me I thought I'll never show
Rap game version of a certain [?]
I'm not really sure, gotta think about it twice
Sometimes I wanna call my dad up and just hear his advice
But when I pickup the phone, all I get is dial tones
I swear my heart is made of stone, black child you're all on your own
That's why I'm all in my zone, my heart's the darkest of tones
You are witnessing the highlights of the making of Rome
I swear these lines be the realest thing I ever wrote
I feel like Noah but somehow I need a bigger boat
All of my peers got their bachelors or they went platinum from rapping
And I'm here lacking in passion
Feel like I'm stacking or slacking
Don't really know how I got here
Can't really tell you what happened
Failure's becoming a habit, attract that shit like a magnet
Between you and I, I've contemplated suicide
I'm just an angel having trouble with his human side
Clearly testament to fate the fact that I'm still alive
It's been the longest road but still there's plenty left still to drive
Still plenty left to drive, yeah