My Shadow

[Verse 1]

They tell you that you need to face the light begin the battle
Failure to realize the creation of a shadow
But there's a purpose don't neglect to see it
Cuz the world is make believe
That may be enough for some
But I need a better reason
Distinct from the sleepless lesions that are leaking
Deep inside my bloodstream
Disgusted with the disease just like a cum stain
Soaking up my love to dream
Becoming a junkie suffering over the "someday"
That still never came
Lucky maybe but it's lonely lately
Incapable of framing goals to hang them on the wall
Let alone having someone special to come and watch
A number to call when I need to get in the locked doors
Combination? I forgot yours
Afraid to feel regret is only leading us to introspective inaction
Broken hands with all these pieces to pick up
But I'm not that talented
When everything is based upon a wish
Empty to reflect yet live
What do you have left to give?

[Hook]

And my.... letting my..... shadow become me
(I said I'll be your biggest fears)
My shadow becomes me
Or have I become the shadow?

[Bridge]

I walk the path that's laid astray
I hope I haven't gone away
Is all okay? It's darker days
Wanting fate to fade and change
I called to make amends
But hell still has my number
Nothing is no longer promised
Want an end but progress hunts my haunted summer
Getting further digging deeper
This is where we are
Rest of the world is just reverb
Echoes of the stars
Teach me to regain, reclaim, remain amidst the cloud cover
But when I slip away I hear the sounds of her...

[Verse 2]

Pulling me under and taking away everything I worked so hard for
Couldn't come up and resolve all the problems that we never brought forth
Your lost soul became a fossil that I dropped off the side of my road
Loved to play with fire, but you couldn't fuck with pyros
A dying rose you're withered
Not even worth the embers that resemble
Thorns and splinters that absorb your center
Like a wizard, sorcerer
The missing matter that you've grown to love
Invisible ladders there was more to us
Of course there was
Now it's war and blood
Forced to shadows
Castles made of glass that shattered
Porcelain ammo and alabaster guns
Bullet holes more than we could fathom
Damaged on the run in quicksand
While confronting one another
Over a chance encounter never planned upon
Failed to realize needs to fit the vacant spaces we belong
Not at all
Gone with the wind now like the fog
Distant disappearing apparition magician
Existence fucked up
But I'm beyond metaphysical
The calm dark cold that warms the heart
While we watched and let it go
Followed scars to find the trail of who you are
And felt your soul with a pair of scissors
Made the incision
I let the blood drip hurt
And spent too many nights in winter
Unsheltered and bitter
Hell is a shell that heaven needs to protect itself
So It's funny that I found it with a pencil
And here we thought it was special
You're not special
Just to let you know