MY SELF DESTRUCTIVE TENDENCIES JUST MIGHT BE THE DEATH OF ME

Man how the fuck I self-destruct with this lil' bitch who dead just asked to marry?
That's a very deep cut but it's goin' that severely
And that's a very big blunt in my mouth with acid handy
Pass the brandy I'm drunk but I'm in my black Amiris
So that should make it okay 'cause I'm so caught up
And this life that I wanted to be about our love
And I ain't even want it I'm only breathin' for Autumn
When my body gets dropping the only season is Autumn
And what's more memorable, my mistakes or my accolades?
What words come up in your mind when you look down at the page
You see me rapping in Times Square the trapping days
You see my name in the light glare of the blackenеd haze
A blackened pagе that's my obituary
My heart turn cold that's why my wrist turn very
Infinite intimate moments ruined by drug abusin'
But they all love the music
And they all love when I can't pronounce all the drugs I'm using
'Cause that's got substance to it
Ain't that ironic?
The place that brings me pain is the place I'm looking for solace
I'm cheating on the drugs 'cause this love we got ain't platonic
I'm lookin' 'round for love when I know I already got it
I'm aggravated, break down the rock that shit got me salivating
Every morning after the high I'm stuck here recalibratring
I don't go to sleep I just die and wake up as a patient
It's true