My Pain(demo Version)

[verse1]
Yo lot times im wondering what is the fero'z life meaning
If im living if im lost in the timez fading
Memories of past forging nostaliga
Make me trapped inside dat’s why i see in utopy
The future what is the purpose
Of our existence if we live our live
So called system in a illusion of freedom
Maybe im pushin to much my brain with this thinkin
Im struggiling inside bleeding

[verse2]
But dont take me as paranoid
Cos im just experiencing the fast grow up
I dont want to end up as a street drop
Im feeling hurted i dont know where i should runaway
Im afraid to show my trueself
Cos then theze humans would eat me alive
Take me as a weak man
But i want to tell you all number one'z
You all winnerz
Bullies,badboyz n bitches laught at me
Parents n teacher point ya fingers at me
Highclass and rich people start to disgrace me
But still i try to help you and make you happy
My goal is to push forward everybody

[verse3]
Somebody need to watch ya backz
We all best so dont test neva step
Never disgrace yaself to gain attention
Of other'z ignorant ass this bullshit
Torture my ear’z the negative criticism
Missing the construction overtake ya bitch
Lot of you building inside barricadez
Cut your emotions off
Feel like strangerz to ya closest
Follow what'z in n trendy
Copy dat whole attitude style to hide
Shattering your beliefs,value and dreamz day n night
Fuck the maingroup homie
Don't be dat blind dummy
Cos it's make darkened ya skully
Ya gonna have so called wild,party
Drug...full...fuck...full...social..full teenager'z days
But what what is gonna happen after them ?
Your free time was wasted in dust
Money and thought'z invested in useless clothes n stuff
And to the wiseness you said back then Fuck..
Im not amazed why adults majority are inside shattered
But maybe im tellin this cos im alone but who is not alone ?
Family splitt up yo boy caused from first day problemz

[verse4]
I see the flashbacklights blinkin in my mind
I see those afraid faces of the innocents
I hurted when i close my shallow eyez
The struggiling neva really stops
It's just collecting waiting fo eruption
Dat's why i always stay awake i fear
To sleep cos then i would never
Want to wake up from my dreamland
I dont pretend myself maybe dat’s why people dont like me
But its not about this matter what i can say about this brotha
Some people love us some hate us
And dat’s how its goes ashes to ashes dust to dust
Im telling what is inside and need to come up
No self pity im lovin my life'z way everytime when
I touch the mic i can escape my demon’z rage 2x