My Meds

[Verse 1]
I take my meds in the morning
Then I put on some porn and
Hope the sun goes back down
I take my meds in the evening
Gave up searching for meaning
The stars don't guide me now

[Pre-Chorus]
Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
Nothing ever seems real

[Chorus]
Been a while since I've been in the deep end
Head above water, why can't I breathe yet?
I'm alive but I can't find a feeling
Tell me what's better, silence or screaming

[Verse 2]
I take my meds in my suitcase
So I can sleep at a friend's place
Never make it on my own
I take my meds 'cause I need to
Say to the mirror "how are you?"
Just to feel less alone

[Pre-Chorus]
Tell me how I'm supposed to feel
Nothing ever seems real

[Chorus 2]
Been a while since I've been in the deep end
Head above water, why can't I breathe yet?
I'm alive but I can't find a feeling
Tell me what's better, silence or screaming
Never thought I would get so dependent
Let me know if you know where my head went
Anything just to feel something different
Who am I now when I'm not pretending?

[Outro]
I take my meds 'cause I need to
I do what I have to
I won't make it on my own