My life my pain my hurt

(verse 1)

Happy life when i was young
Not fitting in with anyone
Having talent but i let it slide
Mommy told me
Baby don't cry
Father told me
Mommy wants to die
I wanna hide
I faded away
Mommy tried to lie
Now i feel the same

(verse 2)

Got my first friend
When i moved
I moved because mommy left
I guess this is something new
She did not want me
She was not happy
Now i feel this pain
Tears are rushing outta me

(verse 3)

But the people i thought
That were my friends
Ended up leaving and lying
And i restarted again
Do they not understand
I can’t handle this
Got a best friend
But we fight all the time
She knows my story
She knows i'm not fine

(verse 4)

Waking up
Wishing the same
That i have been for 6 years
But this life never change
She left one scar
Made me wanna leave
Got in my sister head
Now hse says
My daughter is me
And i wish i could go away

(verse 5)

Getting more friends
Hiding in a corner
Shoving them away
I don't know what to do now
I’m not my former self
When i was little
I did not care
About what they thought
About my medusa hair
I never had a mom that would take care
That would help me
Even when i'm scared

(verse 6)

Cry all the time
I smile to hide
I say i'm alright
When my step mom asks me
Why i wanna die
Cover my face
Don't let them in
I know i'm a disgrace
Now i am this thin
I have been starving myself
For three days now

(verse 7)

No one notices
I'm just a shadow
Trust me i know this
I know i'm worthless
My mother proved it
She shows it real well
Wish i could die
I attempted to die
I wish i could die
I attempted and tried
But i can't say it went too well

(verse 8)

Friend stopping me
Saying i want attention
Break all the mirrors
So no one will be missing
I promise i don’t want attention
I rather hide away
And see how they are not noticing
That i’m gone
No one sings along
Or tells me i'm wrong

(verse 9)

Tell me it’s just a phase
Tell me i'm just a face
Standing in the crown
Is is over now
Looking at the sky
Seeing pain in my eyes
Seeing no lies
Seeing my soul die
And you wonder why
And i say cry
And she says for me to hold on
But i can't when i remember these things
About my horrible mom

(verse 10)

So i die
Away form this life
I will make it end
Tell my friends
I can't handle this
Call me an attention whore now
I don’t care go fuck yourselves
You got nothing better to do
Then showing me how to tie a noose
I can see how you want me dead
I can see how i got this far
Father wants me to be like how i was
When i was younger
And smarter
And happier than i am now
This is my life song
And everybody feels my pain now