My life is a nightmare

I'm not sad at least most of the time till the sun goes down
I'm not mad at these hoe ass niggas tryna bring me down
Demons all around me, i just wanna see the sun
Evil my surroundings, i just wanna feel like i won for once
Drowning all the sad shit, crack the blunt
Hounded by the madness, try for what?
Imma die with none. imma cry all alone cause i trust no one
Fucked up more than i ash my lungs
Imma tuck that heat till the casket comes
Shit not sweet, always bitter and a nightmare
Thoughts beat the shit out of me they don't fight fair

Overdose twice, gave my mom a couple slight scares
Motorboat pipе all these hoes just to feel carе
Can't share shit i'm a phantom with a grim stare
Not no bitch, i'm just showing you a few wares
Tare on the scale before i weigh a couple new shares
Pale when compared to myself before the new year
And i got some new fears, sheer pain with a few beers
New lane, switched up sorry i'm not too clear..
Looking in the mirror getting harder with the day close
Done with sipping faygos, lean was feeling way slow
And i gotta speed up the pace just to pace up
Waking up to fray from everything i hate hate bruh
Losing all my friends quicker than i drink the k cups
Midnight strikes to distract imma play somn
Followed by the dread of thinking that i'm getting fake love
Getting fake love