My life is a mess

[Verse]
I been tryna find happiness in the madness bitch why it always slip away
I been on back to the wall since actavis pouring out like paint
Pulling up clean with the bass stay vacant in my face ain’t for the fake
I’m making that vision that I held since I was young and full of pain
Still feel it all

Coming in calm
Driven imprinted myself on the wall
Look at the writing
I been invited
Deep in the depths but I step out deciding
I’m finna leave behind my words
I’ll never demonize this world
Make it my bitch and bring up my boys
And i dance with the devil tranquilize hurt
Word

What it to do
When you fell out the tomb
And it tell you to do it again
I been enveloped the truth
And I send it to you
Tryna relate to someone instead
Tryna be delicate with the intention
And make it to set up for something that’s been
Deep in my head since I bled on the paper what pained em and pave my way outa this mess

[$LOTHBOI]
Paradox cuz the soap be dirty
Boy, alleyway sippin 40 OE
Quick dash, cuz I stash it on me
Take a step back, it’s the homies only
Life be messy we a side effect
Boy I’m living proof of a dying bred
Lying red in your dying bed
Man i miss my brothers in eternal rest
Should’ve, could’ve would’ve
Now life my a mess
Taking charge
But this 40 got me set
Soap awakened
He took 20 acid hits
That’s a fact, you can ask him bout that shit
But he fried, but we died
Yesterday but we ignoring god
Knock knock
Oh fuck
Reaper here with the 12 cuh

Unhinged
Rather die chasing dreams than to live doing lame shit
No end
To the goals in my head I ain’t leave what I came with
Big cleanse
Cuz this binge gonna take my life, so my friends said
Fuck everyone that be doubting they fake ye
Riding my cock cuz they late to the train shit