My Last Relationship(Extended)

Look I've never been a man to speak about emptiness
But now deep inside my heart I've got an empty chest
I know a little more of man and of negligence
But i know that deep down inside I've got no regrets

Cos i met a girl and she made me feel like everything
She made me feel even with nothing that I'll always win
A lovely person and her face kept up a lovely grin
Lived barely two decades but i know more than half of sin

So i met this girl on instagram and we got talking
Not actually cos for years bro steady stalking
Tried to draw attention but nothing then was working
But deep down i know I'm not her spec and thats interesting

But i still kept up my head said i was worth her while
Cos mummy told me ever since i was a special guy
More of a hopelesss romantic with a mediocre eye
My mums a legend and i know that legends never die

Back to the story mans i stalked this girl for days
Double tapping all her pics and screengrabbing oh my days
I was obsessed if thats the word, obsessed is what they say
Cos shes got this kind of smile that could brighten up your day

So i mustered up the courage and i slid in to her DM's
Started acting corny asking shawty if we could be friends
And then she hit me back I'm surprised i couldn't pretend
So i hit her back immediately without thinking was intense

Now we talking for a week or two and i thought i had her sprung
She was shouting me on the gram and nothings feeling wrong
And my guys telling me that I've got a special one
I knew that it was fair to say the thing we had was strong

So now we kinda dating linking up at the ends
I guess it's time for her to meet Sammy and all my friends
Now I'm terrified cos these niggas funny kind of idiots
One bad statement and they'd be crashing all of my billiards

So the day of the linkup we started off talking
Told her how my night went after we said our good mornings
I knew something was off but i dun tried to ignore it
Then she said we need to talk, I'm like damn lay it on me

She like homeboy I'm sorry I've played you for a fool
What we had was special i love you cos you're cool
Our vibe is like my everything you're not the normal dude
But I've gotta work on me, I'm going through heartbreaks too

Now she's talking to me telling me bout her insecurities
Telling me bout how she's now her only top priority
She knew me through and through and i ain't talking bout anatomy
But you dun said you love me played with my heart like your monopoly

So now I'm feeling quizy trying to understand
Was it something that i did or PTSD from her man
Was i pressuring her too much or was we just meant for the gram?
I couldn't feel my legs again, my head was spinning like a fan

But i just hit her back, saying yes i understand
You're dealing with your own shit, i feel as best as you can
You had a crazy human you were saying is your man
But you took me to Neverland girl you're my Peter pan

But its cool tho i get it, you're scared of falling in love
Last time you gave your heart away it was tossed in the dump
The nigga had you good you was sprunger than sprung
So take your time to sort it out figure out I'm the one

So this right here is message to all them toxic girls
Are you really deep in love or are you talking to your girls
When you find that special man treat eachother y'all are pearls
Not everything that happens has to reach all of the girls

To the mandem tryna rush things you have to understand
She's not just straight_up shitty, she's had a scary past
To lead you on and leave you wasn't actually her plan
But eventually it happened based on popular demand

So brush the dust off you're moving straight ahead
Show emotions where you can hommie but don't go acting weird
Try to be on the same page don't be gloomy don't be red
Eventually it'll work out if it dont fuxk what i said