My Favorite Mistake Was You

Alone at night i think about what i'd do
If the person i was meant to be - ever shines through
How i spend my days trying to be
The kind of kid that you want close to you
And i kno how this one ends
We want the ones that we can't have
So what the fuck is wrong with me?
Why can't i let go of you?
The first time all i saw were your eyes
And now i can't stand to look inside them
It's not your distance that's killing me
It's being close to you that makes me close to myself
And i can't stand the way i am
I push away the ones who love me
And i embrace the apathy
And hang from all your lies
And if i could i'd take back my words
And heal my heart
If i could i'd take back the secrets
My stiched up heart
If i could i'd forget your face
A brand new start
If i could i'd show you how
You tore me apart