My Eulogy

I drew the stars from inside my cage
To pretend things were okay
I broke myself counting the days
I'd be kept backstage
What's good about being the leader
If you'd prefer me dead
It's good you told me
I'm no longer your friend
'cause i wanna be more than that

Now our whole lives could change
You said i'm strange
You said i'm weird
Zilch changes if i'm here
Is it worse than i feared
I know i'm weird
I know i'm strange
But i'm good at this whole game

Maybe my primacies are wrong
But i won't take this beating
I thought this group was the best team
I'm a helpless lesbian
You can throw away your compliments
Or make them your weapons
We've both walked through burning
Hellscapes together
Let's take a break in heaven

Now our whole lives could change
You said i'm strange
You said i'm weird
I'll let you puppeteer
Is it worse than i feared
I know i'm weird
I know i'm strange
Everyone says i'm to blame

I know that i am your friend
But am i me now? i don't know
I don't know if you know who i am

Now our whole lives could change
You said i'm strange
You said i'm weird
I've always been a bit queer
Is it worse than i feared
I know i'm weird
I know i'm strange
I'd never want you tame

Now our whole lives could change
You said i'm strange
You said i'm weird
Can you please stay near me
Is it worse than i feared
I know i'm weird
I know i'm strange
I just hope you feel the same