MY ETERNAL PARADOX II

[Intro: bappy]
Yeah, yeah

[Verse 1: bappy]
Tryna make it, tired of waitin'
Scared to face it all, I rise and then I fall
I know that I need help and help is just one call away
But I'm ashamed, nobody like me deserves to be saved
A fast death or a long life of nothin'? Go 'head and choose
It's hard when twenty years down the line I got nothin' to lose
Distractin' myself could never free me from the truth
I swear my minds been bleedin' out, my mind forever bruised, yeah
Wish I could cry, wish you was there for me
A-A hard goodbye, to what life used to be
The world just keeps on spinnin' like a CD
Fuck different choices, yeah, no matter what the cycle repeats
Wish I could cry, wish you was there for me
A hard goodbye, to what life used to be
The-the-the world just keeps on spinnin' like a CD
Fuck different choices, yeah, no matter what the cycle repeats

[Pre-Chorus: via]
I know that love's hard to find
Please wipe your tears with my mind
Hide that fear all inside, I had to trust when you lied
Thought I'd feel better once I fuckin' got up and tried
But I can't lie, so many times, I hope I just die
Gettin' over it, the hardest part of growin' up
But when I'm in that room I still just feel like throwin' up
And every time you yell, you tell me that it's all for love
I want no part of it, I don't even wanna open up

[Chorus]
Had no time to be young, I'm always stressed out
And you know I freeze up when they bring checks out
They like, "Yo, via, you the best now"
And I'm so scared just to fuckin' let down, oh
I ain't have a dad for my whole damn life
When he hit me up, he like, "Hope you found a wife
"Yeah, I fuckin' love you son, just know you give me life"
But if it were the other way around, I wouldn't, like

[Bridge: bappy]
Heaven or Hell? Your choice, uh
Life or death? Your choice
Pleasure, pain? Your choice
Life will lose its poise
I fell into the hole
Where it ends? Nobody knows
But I'll get back up one more time

[Pre-Chorus: via]
Gettin' over it, the hardest part of growin' up (Oh)
But when I'm in that room I still just feel like throwin' up (Oh)
And every time you yell, you tell me that it's all for love (Ooh-oh, oh)
I want no part of it, I don't even wanna open up

[Chorus: via]
Had no time to be young, I'm always stressed out
And you know I freeze up when they bring checks out
They like, "Yo, via, you the best now"
And I'm so scared just to fuckin' let down, oh
I ain't have a dad for my whole damn life
When he hit me up, he like, "Hope you found a wife
"Yeah, I fuckin' love you son, just know you give me life"
But if it were the other way around, I wouldn't, like

[Verse 2: bappy]
'Til it gets better, it gets worse
But when does that change? 'Cause I feel the same
Burnin' out, can't even put words into a verse
Askin', "Is this the end, or is it just a phase?" Oh
Why do I still live like that when it's bad for me?
Been closed off from the world, now we in too deep
Yeah, I'm wide awake, but I'll try to sleep it off
No comfort in my eternal paradox