My Drugs

[Intro]
The shit I go through
It starts to show through
'Cause life's rough, life's rough
I'm addicted to the likes of fiction
They're my drugs, my drugs, no

[Verse 1]
So much psychological anguish inside of these walls
I swear to god, it's like it stained them and at sight I'm appalled
The same paint, same scrapes from the night that I called
The suicide hotline when I thought I just might end it all
Now, I'm just tryin' to cope with all of my inner thoughts
Maybe take some of your ego and then siphon it off
Gotta be at the same level or else I might dissolve
Right to the stall, anxiety that I just liken to falling
Down a fuckin' cliff and seeing how long I can hold on
But when I plummet, there is no reviving, I'm gone
Might as well buy me up a coffin 'fore the cops gets involved
I can't ever solve, it's like all of my bones disintegrate
Excuse the pun, but I guess I don't know why I decay
In more ways than one, I really don't like this place
Emotionally and physically, my whole damn life has changed
From this addiction I can only hope to wipe away

[Chorus]
The shit I go through
It starts to show through
'Cause life's rough, life's rough
I'm addicted to the likes of fiction
They're my drugs, my drugs, no (Yo)

[Verse 2]
Whether it's emotional, habits, substances, all of the same kind
Of addiction, wreakin' havoc up in your dang life
Rewire your brain, it's like a fuckin' big chain tied
To your back, on the other end's a pup with a crazed mind
Possessed by a demon and it runs while you stand by
You a meatsuit for the beast, as he's seekin' for prey by
Proxy, and now guess who the fuck is to blame? I
Been dealin' with this shit for a while, it ain't right
But hang tight 'cause I'm really done tryna play nice
It's the worst drug ever and it's hidden in plain sight
But for this type of coke, they ain't bringin' the K9
Hydration and carbohydrates, both are the same type
Of necessity, no one ever thinks it could change lives
Maybe if we lay rhymes, is it possible they might
Open their eyes? I say be cautious, you may find
That instead of tryna make a change, they'd rather just stay blind

[Chorus]
The shit I go through
It starts to show through
'Cause life's rough, life's rough
I'm addicted to the likes of fiction
They're my drugs, my drugs, no
The shit I go through
It starts to show through
'Cause life's rough, life's rough
My mind was prison, a life sentence
But I'm done, I'm done, yeah

[Outro]
It's July 28th, 2022
I'm 60 pounds down
Took basically
Everything out of me to get to this point
But that urge
The urge to go back
Never really goes away