My ditch

Look around me
Stuck in my misery, i'm drowning
Trash piling up, heart pounding
What surrounds me?
A reflection of myself
I'd like to think i'm better
But i really can't tell
Intake as a mental crutch
Just keep thinking
I can't take myself
Please so just keep thinking
Honestly, i can't stand how i treat myself
God, why is it so hard to believe in myself

Why can't i just pull myself through?
Why can't i just pull myself through?
I can't seem to get a grip
Welcome to myself
Glad to see you're back in your ditch. x2

Can't focus at all
Can't control what my mind draws
Can't overhear my brain and shit that it spits out
Reality forced in my ears ain't helping out
Can't say that you're wrong, can i?
Why am i keeping myself away? That's why
Picking pieces up is already hard enough
My back hurts, too lazy to get back up

Why can't i just pull myself through?
Why can't i just pull myself through?
I can't seem to get a grip
Welcome to myself
Glad to see you're back in your ditch. x2