My Dearest Self With Malice Aforethought

[Intro]
What took so long to believe in you?
What took so long to believe in you?

[Verse 1]
How does it feel to watch them pour, what you've been through
I'll let the Earth have it's way with me if it won't touch you
Breaking the odds, and the smell of violation
Cried so hard cause I could never, be God’s creation

[Interlude]
This sound, it's a strange place I keep returning to in my nightmares
I replay those nights over and over and over
Sometimes I even start to refer to them as dreams
Because whеn I wake up is when it becomеs real
And I'd think about it regardless if I was asleep or not

[Verse 2]
I'm hurting inside
The last time I've felt like this I took my own life
Cause there's no way I would rather want to die
My final gift to this, my beautiful suicide
Let these thoughts dance on
If you felt this I'll make you [?]
But keep living for my own sake
Cause if I lose one more I think that I'll break
Breaking the odds, and the smell of violation
Cried so hard cause I could never, be God’s creation

[Outro]
Been to the holy worlds
My lord, My saviour, I ask the above; “Why?”