My Broken Heart in Words

He was sweet. He was my first true love.

You ever kiss someone and it feels like the first you ever had? You just sit there and think about all the fun times. All the jokes you guys made. The hand holding at the beach. The play fighting But he would always cheat and throw you over his shoulder. The kissing at the beach. The whispering little sweet things in each other's ears. The cute little paragraphs you get every morning that make you smile so big.

Then you find out he fell out of love and won’t say he loves you back then the paragraphs suddenly stop. The kisses feel different. He becomes distant and you don't know why. Then a few days after you decide to break up another girl appears on social media. Then your mind floats to another place.

You start to remember the good times. All those memories you have with him start flooding in. You start to remember what he said. Those kisses. Those paragraphs. The good old play fighting. The way you would make fun of each other. His laugh. His smile. His eyes. His personality. You start to cry cry and cry. And you can't stop crying you start to feel numb because the pain is too much. Your heart is broken into a million pieces. Then you just feel empty and you’re wearing a mask towards everyone you love.

So am I or anyone actually ok? Is it all just a mask? Are my laughs real? Or is everything just for show?