My Apologies

!LLumiN@TE - “My Apologies”
[Emcee(s): !LLumiN@TE]
[Producer(s): H2 (AKA DJH2 / Halo) {Original Instrumental from H2 - “Duo”}]

[Verse: !LLumiN@TE]
I know I’m not the easiest to love. I can be
A prick, but you still squeeze me when we hug
I know I can be aloof. I know that silent
Treatment is emotional abuse. I know you hate it
When I don’t hold you, walking ‘round the crib, acting
Like I don’t know you, as if I don’t owe you my life
As if it ain’t an honor I could call you my wife
Usually, you probably wouldn’t even fall for my type
Yet here we are, coming up on five years—that’s
Five years of facing my fears, face-to-face
With my better half, left-handed like you work with weather maps
Storms brewing, we already weathered that. You
Are my sunshine, my every day, not my sometimes
I’m guilty of neglect—that’s a love crime. I need
A palm-reader for my love line. Your love language is
Above English, quality time and physical touch
Your body is mine, you know how I’m giving it up
I gotta work on words of affirmation. The only
Thing I ask of you is patience. We’re gonna make it like
We made a baby. I don’t say it, but you make me crazy
I know I act like love don’t ever faze me—that’s just
The way the streets of Harlem raised me. Razor-sharp cuts
Straight to the point. Play your part. Some niggas
Overdo it. All Teddy Riley had to do is play his fucking
Music. Fucking blew it. Life lessons
Bottom line: I’m blocking my blessings, but no
Weapons form by the hands of a man that was
Ever born could disconnect the bond. No bon voyage
Bon Jovi, I’m “Livin’ On A Prayer”
I’m living in the present ‘cause it’s here—can you hear me now?
Always and forever in the here and now
Now or later, never tear it down. I love you
I’m sorry
I place no one above you, mami