Must Have Forgot

[Verse 1]
I'm not ashamed to admit it
I am the person responsible for all the pain that I'm feelin'
Can't nobody hurt me like I hurt myself
Do it all of the time but I havn't been healin'
I don't think I'll make it
So I take another one straight, no I don't need no chaser
Lately been gettin' too wasted, feel like it's just me vers' the world
Yeah, I know everyone hates me
This is the way that it has to be
So I'm done runnin' from whatever's after me
I deserve all of it, do not feel bad for me
Self-inflictеd all the wounds, do it happily
I got nobody to call on
The love that I had that is long gonе
And my whole life I've been misunderstood
Yeah, this whole damn world has got me all wrong
I just wanna be myself
They want me to change, they say when I drink that I should see myself
Been dyin' inside, I'ma need my health
Why you only come around when you need my help?
I remember bein' suicidal
Never waitin' on my arrival
I pushed the limit so many times
I don't know why I still survive though

[Chorus]
[?]
My spirit is under attack
Have I fallen into a trap?
Usually, I don't get into it
And I'ma tell y'all 'bout the pain that I've felt all my life
I become numb to the pain and it starts to feel right
So give me what you got, you could do your worst
Send a hundred shots, put me in the dirt
You must've forgot how much I'm really hurt
You must've forgot, you must've forgot
So give me what you got

[Verse 2]
Wonderin' if I'm gone or I'm not
All I know is I'm alone in my thoughts
I see you feelin' right at home on the block
You can change in the hand that you got
They said that only time will tell
I spent a little time in hell, commissary inside the cell
All the time that I was in the penitentiary
Ain't a person in the world come and visit me
Man, that really do somethin' hard to your pride
How you do so much wrong you ain't worth nobody time?
Way too many times it was weighin' on my mind
I was layin' there at night contemplatin' suicide
I don't make-believe
Really got a guardian angel savin' me
Only reason that I'm still alive, thankfully
Became who I aimed to be, you hate, but you can't compete
Sometimes I think that I'm somebody
Other times I think that I'm nobody
I ain't never wanna have to break down work
But I'm with that fast life, I don't do it with the slow money
I don't make excuses, I create solutions
I don't hang with losers, busy makin' moves
And I don't the time to be chasin' Gucci
My life is an inspirational movie

[Chorus]
[?]
My spirit is under attack
Have I fallen into a trap?
Usually, I don't get into it
And I'ma tell y'all 'bout the pain that I've felt all my life
I become numb to the pain and it starts to feel right
So give me what you got, you could do your worst
Send a hundred shots, put me in the dirt
You must've forgot how much I'm really hurt
You must've forgot, you must've forgot