Muscle Memory

I've been doing great
Living gold days
Working on reconstructing
Put a lot on my plate
Right out the gate
So I don't start self-destructing
My idle mind is like your plaything
This vicious cycle isn't breaking

I got all these new friends
We go out on the weekends
Bought those Doctor Martens
I sublet my apartment

But I'm still hit with muscle memory
When it's quarter to three
My hands remember reaching for you
It's my co-dependency, my muscle memory
My heart remembers beating for you

When I was stressed I call you to vent
Now it's just overwhelming
Still write those texts, just don't press send
Stupid and it isn't helping

I'm a lost cause in the making
This vicious cycle isn't breaking

I got all these new friends
We go out on the weekends
Bought those Doctor Martens
I sublet my apartment

But I'm still hit with muscle memory
When it's quarter to three
My hands remember reaching for you
It's my co-dependency, my muscle memory
My heart remembers beating for you

I got all these new friends
We go out on the weekends
But I'm still hit, hit
But I'm still hit, hit
I got all these new friends
We go out on the weekends
But I'm still hit, hit
But I'm still hit, hit