Muscle Memory

Down we go
My lovely boy
Just hold my hand
Where did you go?
You sympathise
Caught in the sails? I don’t know
Can't understand
I fall in the hole
I waved you off
Land far away
Eighteen years old
Before you know
You came back angry and cold
It happens every other day

I know we haven’t been the best of friends
I'm sorry
But here’s an offer now that never ends
I try
Look how far my open hand extends
But it's hard
We’ve got lots of time to make our mends
On the holidays and at weekends
Like a pantomime ghost
On the holidays and at weekends
You can scare it off
On the holidays and at weekends
With songs and jokes
On the holidays and at weekends

Oh, I never really knew
But when the laughter fades
There is only doubt
What, all my brags and boasts
And the light at the end of the tunnel
They must have done to you
It just flickers out
No, I never meant to cast
I can't stand the sight, I can't stand the sound
A shadow so opaque
The only place I belong now
So heavy or so vast
Is in the fucking ground

So, down we go
My lovely boy
Again and again
Ah, there you are
I don't know why
I knew you couldn’t be far
And I can't say when
Don't follow me
If all’s forgot
Down the track
Promise me then
'Cause next time I go
Don’t ever leave me again
I might not be back