Mummy Says (Part 3)

Intro:
Born in 93
Parents split in like 99
Dad cut moved to totty sides
Brother’s mum was in doddy sides
Between the 3 tryna find myself
So young and it was wild bro
What’s more fucked is I’m 28
And all now I ain’t found home
So much shit I ain’t spoke about
And oh Lord how I wanted to
I act cool on my social apps
But suffering in my solitude
So much times I could’ve got killed myself
And oh Lord how I wanted to
Music saved me so many times
Cool, here’s what we’re gonna do

This the last one
The last mummy says that I’ll ever make
And I’m a say it all
I’m a lay it bare I won’t hesitate
But if you hear something in this song
You relate to and think that it’s fucked
Well just know that you’re not alone
I pray this song helps to lift you up

Verse 1:
So let’s proceed
My BM said she was pregnant
Boy did I panic and shit
I said she better have an abortion bro
No way that you’re having my kid
Went back and forth and argued
Bare words full of anger and shit
Said that she’s doing it with or without me
So I best pattern up quick
Man I burnt the bridge
I said she ain’t trapping me is she fucking sick?
Ain’t no girl gonna force me into fatherhood
It is what it is
Then September the 18th hit
Day of my Westwood crib sesh
Told the gang we gotta pattern up
It’s like 20 man on some big flex
Getting changed, I collapsed bro
Couldn’t breathe, felt paralysed
I try reach for my phone for an ambulance
I get to it then that had died
Now I’m laying there on death’s door
Man’s barely breathing man can’t move
I’m home alone, my housemates are out
I’m thinking the fuck am I gonna do?
Then my door rings, one girl I linked come to get her stuff
I’m screaming out, I need help, I can’t move, the pains nuff like
She found the spare key, called the ambulance, now it’s A&E
I got two drips in like both arms
A gas mask just so I can breathe
Doctors saying it ain’t good
It’s best they contact my family
And we ain’t even spoke for some fuckeries
They’re like sir can you unlock it please?
Went to type, my phone buzz, a picture sent I could barely see
It was a little girl, the message said she’s here let’s do paternity I said fuck

Verse 2:
God gives bro and he takes away
The same day that I shoulda died in that hospital
My daughter came
And at that point I thought about all that shit I said
It wasn’t great
Like how dare I say I didn’t want my kid?
I feel sick, it’s my biggest shame
But let’s move on

I survive g, a tough road but I made it back
I try squash things with my daughter’s mum
I said look I wanna be a dad
I ain’t tryna do all this back and forth about me and you, it isn’t that
So let’s co parent, be cordial…but to her it just isn’t that
See there’s nothing worse than a woman scorned
Her bitterness it just wouldn’t leave
But 9 months without my support in that pregnancy
I get it g

But what I didn’t get
Is why she couldn’t let it go for our daughter’s sake?
Cause when everything becomes tug of war
All of us become losers mate
It’s just, big regrets
Like what’s hurting me at our kid’s expense?
Her anger’s so blinding
Like, she can’t that this shit’s so ments

But here comes the switch
Fights coming in fast and thick
Said that she’s doing it with or without me so I best pattern up quick
And she burnt the bridge

Now it’s been 4 years I ain’t seen my kid
And it’s been hell, I reach out, my bm says I should I burn in it
She goes to feds with some fucked story
And gets me bagged on some hurtful shit
And fans cuss about new music
But no clue what man’s hurdling

I’m on a case for some sick lies
Tryna figure out what this game is over?
Then lawyers tell me I can’t claim for no custody till that case is over
On that case for like 2 years
And all the pain is just taking over
And mummy tells me God only gives all the weight to his greatest soldiers

Then Mummy Says 1 taken down
Cah old friends become pagans now
I found love and she turned fake
I’m in a sunken place I can’t make it out

I had Cads die, Kyle die, Bisz die, Naytz die, Toolz die, French die, Mum died, then my dad died
I only sleep when I’m mad fried
Like if not I just lay awake
There’s so much shit I wanna ask God
Like I know you don’t make mistakes

But God why me? Like why the pain?
And why do I feel it constantly?
Like am I meant to be this sad?
And is this all that you want for me?
Like will I ever see happiness?
Cah life’s just looking long for me
But only God knows
I guess wait and we’re gonna see
Nivz…..