Much Afraid

Convinced of my deception
I've always been a fool
I fear this love reaction
Just like you said I would
A rose could never lie
About the love it brings
And I could never promise
To be any of those things

If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken
Growing old
I would be
I would

Blessed are the shallow
Depth they'll never find
Seemed to be some comfort
In rooms I try to hide
Exposed beyond the shadows
You take the cup from me
Your dirt removes my blindness
Your pain becomes my peace

If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken
Growing old
I would be
I would

Perhaps this moment is something that ain’t gon last forever
What happens after is ain't up to me but however
I know I’m free to decide, I’m free to comply
I’m free to be like Gideon, stay here and hide
I don’t feel fit to be a leader. Most days it’s hard to follow
Broken wine skins, explains me feeling hollow
These gifts I do not own, but I trade for something borrowed
Feel like I’m penny pinching my way up the gallows
Bout to lose my head or my mind, I’m seein red
As I look across them verses, tryna live it how it’s read
I wish I could back to the day my father said
Remember who you are
Fast forward 10 years, I think I finally get it
My identity in God, shouldn’t ever be hidden
If I wasn’t so afraid they gone forget about me
Or if I wasn’t so concerned I got no team around me
If my treasures were in heaven would I find wealth
If this song was like a flair would you Send Help
I’ll put this flag upon a pole the size of Everest
And I'll surrender all my fears and bow in reverence
Never forgetting this

If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken
Growing old
If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
I would be
(I would be)
I would be
(I would be)
I would be

Frail
(I would be)
Frail
(I would be)
Frail
Frail

(I would be)
(I would be)
(I would be)