Motivation speech

Dear god i lost too much people i loved i don't wanna lose this
I'm satisfied to be my own fan base but god i want u to keep this for me cause i feel Hypnotized
Writing in my book of rhymes
About my future look about me being wise
Enterprise
Be The best of who iam
With succes im a stan
I wanna special jet to fly to japan
Without seeling my sool to satan
Sometimes u feel so close
Of havin it
Then u like im so gross far from winnig it
Then u either give up or keep stuck in it
Then u need more fuel for your fire to concker shit
But u big sorry ass won't fight with it
Keep with it drop yourself lose it stop your sool from losing it
Boys girls y'all are infinite your еnergy won't stop untill u collapse i feel like im talking to mе wait
I've been iam that shit so relevent
My loss is my resurection i refuse to make the same mistakes
Its killing me
Nothing too much for me i'm not hurt its just some beautiful kinda pain recovering my brain tryn not to hit rock bottom again and again and again cause i'll go insane what a shame who should i blame but myslef i got a name i need to get on my knees again
And again and try again
Even if a tear drops thats not stopping me from being a man
Fighting everybody even my own familly
And i ain't gon lie i'm hurt tired of that happenig to me
I guess time never changes but people do
Life gets no harder but lies turn u a fool and bad actions too
Keep it simple go through and fuck bad people around u and make sure u deserve the best things to happend to u
U a human being u heard that being wich means u need to be here u were born to be free i ain't u and u ain't me they ain't them them ain't we
We gotta accept our diffrences anyway
To live in a better certain way
Personnaly i choosed to be a
Differant kinda boy
But he played with toys
Fathers weren't both
Having no remorse
Cause He knows god is good
Groing in the hood
His friends are really few
U can call him dude
But he's misunderstood
Won't stop till i drop till i'm having it
Big flop shit hot then flopped in it
But i'm sure my fall won't define it
If u don't believe me watch sit
Cause my purpose,goals are infinite
U feeling it ?
Understanding it? Or u won't believe it till u see it?
Honestly sick of talking
See me rocking like slick rick and nas eminem pac and krs one and rakim relentless like em