“more messed up” was a lot. I had become incredibly distraught over a relationship that never happened, and wrote this as a response to the situation after crying on my floor for an hour. because i’m a music nerd, the hook and articulation on the second “begging” from the phrase “begging that you st...
I wanna hold ya close
But the painting isn't dry, yeah
I wanna feel your ghost
Trying to creep inside
I threw up a wall that totaled the car
We'd been drunk driving to the bar
If you don't recall, you don't want me at all
Isn't it so pathetic?
Crawl back, crawl back, crawl back
I prayed for you to die last night
Wishing it was a bluff
I know I never wanna be with you
I'm way too in love
You never felt enough
Maybe I'd feel a little better
If you left a little
More messed up
I gotta separate, I need my own space
I threw the cover of a magazine in my fireplace
I felt a familiar agitation, fear of the dark
Remembered shaking from a short film in the back of her car
You'll hesitate driving away so I'll
Levitate soon as you leave but you stay
And tally every tear floating down my face
Memorize me begging you stay, begging that you stay
I prayed for you to die last night
Wishing it was a bluff
I know I never wanna be with you
I'm way too in love
You never felt enough
Maybe I'd feel a little better
If you left a little
More messed up
Begging you stay, begging that you stay
More messed up
Begging you stay, begging that you stay
More messed up
Begging you stay, begging that you stay
More messed up
Begging you stay, begging that you stay
I prayed for you to die last night
Wishing it was a bluff
I know I never wanna be with you
I'm way too in love
You never felt enough
Maybe I'd feel a little better
If you left a little
More messed up
I wanna hold ya close
But the painting isn't dry
And tally every tear floating down my face
Memorize me begging you stay, begging that you stay
More messed up was written by Ryan O’Connor.
More messed up was produced by Ryan O’Connor.
Raw-honey released More messed up on Fri May 19 2023.