Moonlight Suicide

[Intro]
Tonight a community is mourning the suicide of a thirteen year old who took his life at school
7 Action News reporter Ronnie Dahl is live at the police department tonight
Ronnie, what a tragedy this is. Do police have any answers tonight
Well, sadly, police and family members may never have all of their, uh, questions answered because that is the case too many times in a suicide. What we have been able to learn just a short time ago is that they have been able to track this gun. It was registered and a legal gun to a family member. The student also had a suicide note indicating he was just having a hard time dealing with being a teenager

[Verse 1: Hex Rated]
This life is full of pain I'm trying to maintain
But everything I do it tries driving me insane
Chemical imbalance bedded deep inside my brain
My thoughts are not right, this life is just strange
Sitting with a knife underneath the moonlight
I cut and slice away, won't live to see the day
My mind-frame is quite frightening
No light or soul is inside to help guide me
I might be losing my mind, this happens nightly
I see myself hanging from a noose
In my eyes, all the hate from the world was consumed
Now I'm at my breaking point and I am welcoming the doom
So sit back bitch and hear the click click boom
Have you ever seen your blood shine under the moon?
Have you ever felt the pain of a knife cutting through you?
No pill or remedy for this besides a slit wrist
My mind is helpless, this life is just shit
No hope, it's endless Slate razor then fifths
Now look into my eyes, what you see is indifference
No deliverance or fate to save me
Depression is crazy, the pressure is making me
Lose my fucking life, say goodbye to my kids and wife
Fuckin' up, I look around, pour a shot and drink it down
Squeeze the trigger and leave my brains on the ground now

[Chorus: Hex Rated & YOSHI]
I don't wanna live
I wanna wash it away
I wanna wash it away
I don't wanna live
I wanna die today
I wanna die today
I don't wanna live
I wanna cut it away
I wanna cut it away
I don't wanna live
I wanna die today
I wanna die today

[Verse 2: YOSHI]
Look, I'm doing fine, I say that all the time
Wanna know my thoughts but know nothing 'bout my life
This thought runs through my mind, I've got a noose to tie
Who wants to choose to die? I'm telling you all goodbye
I can't pretend anymore to be somebody that I'm not
Insanity tries to take me to that vivid cold spot
Having memories damage me, people lowered into plots
These people were my friends, so many friends we have lost
And it doesn't end and so I do try to move on
But it ain't easy being strong, it's easy to slip and fall
I hate myself, that's wrong, but I don't like when people call
The pavement sings a song, it tells me to lay my bones and crawl
Until my hands and knees are bleeding and my skin's rubbed off
Motivation is more than gone, anxiety worsens
My nerves ain't working, I got one feeling left
And I'll tell you it's fucking worthless
I'm not gonna make a difference, this world doesn't care at all
Spin me 'round and watch me attempt to find a purpose y'all
You laugh at the struggle I deal with until it's you
Begging for some change on the street to get some food
And it's your family and your friends that don't include
Anything good to say about your future, they know you're doomed
No wonder we turn to drugs, go ahead, inhale the fumes
Alone in your room you'll be overdosing too

[Chorus: Hex Rated & YOSHI]
I don't wanna live
I wanna wash it away
I wanna wash it away
I don't wanna live
I wanna die today
I wanna die today
I don't wanna live
I wanna cut it away
I wanna cut it away
I don't wanna live
I wanna die today
I wanna die today

[Interlude: Hex Rated]
You don't try suicide, bitch, it tries you
And then you die, your life's a vicious cycle
Of hate and pain, repetition every day, run away
End it all, cut away, you can fuckin' die today
No one would care anyway (nuh uh)
Those are the thoughts inside my brain (uh huh)
You don't try suicide, bitch, it tries you
And then you die, your life's a vicious cycle
Of hate and pain, repetition every day, run away
End it all, cut away, you can fuckin' die today
No one would care anyway (nuh uh)
Those are the thoughts inside my brain (uh huh)
I try to fight this and medicate the rage and hate
Form that built and took shape
Moonlight suicide, I might try it
End my life twice in a cycle of violence
Kill yourself bitch, don't think, just try it
Death is a ticket I sell so buy it

[Chorus: Hex Rated & YOSHI]
I don't wanna live
I wanna wash it away
I wanna wash it away
I don't wanna live
I wanna die today
I wanna die today
I don't wanna live
I wanna cut it away
I wanna cut it away
I don't wanna live
I wanna die today
I wanna die today

[Chorus: Hex Rated & YOSHI]
I don't wanna live
I wanna wash it away
I wanna wash it away
I don't wanna live
I wanna die today
I wanna die today
I don't wanna live
I wanna cut it away
I wanna cut it away
I don't wanna live
I wanna die today
I wanna die today

[Outro: Jim Jones]
We've been so betrayed. We have been so terribly betrayed
So my opinion is that we be kind to children, and be kind to seniors, and take the potion like they used to take in Ancient Greece, and step over quietly because we are not committing suicide — it's a revolutionary act