This song explains Josh’s ongoing struggle with finding happiness and his solutions on how to feel happy in the end. It also gives an in depth look at his life like earning 7 figures through music and his P.T.S.D from past experience with domestic violence.
[Intro]
I don't know if I'm gonna make it
I swallow my pride like the—
[Chorus]
All these mood swings might break me
I can't sleep, my brain keeps on racing
Scared I won't survive
I been losin' sleep now
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back
I don't know what's goin' on nah
Change my mind, I'll try when I want that
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back
[Verse 1]
When my mind goes, I go psycho
I won't lie, I been searchin' for somethin' in the dark days
Demons comin' closer
I try to find myself, I been lookin' for some closure
How many times can I try?
How many times will I fall again?
I don't wanna make no one cry
Been hurting myself way too much
[Pre-Chorus]
I don't know if I'm gonna make it
I swallow my pride like the pills I'm takin'
Swear all my life been too complacent
Just wanna be happier
[Chorus]
All these mood swings might break me
I can't sleep, my brain keeps on racing
Scared I won't survive
I been losin' sleep now
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back
I don't know what's goin' on nah
Change my mind, I'll try when I want that
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back
[Verse 2]
Dreams of fame and fortune, all I had at 17
There was a goal that I envisioned, gave it all of me
I made sacrifices to escape so I could finally be free
Grew up around domestic violence, gave me P.T.S.D
I made a seven-figure salary at 23
Still feel like an underdog because the game don't notice me
That's alright with me because I never like the spotlight, that's lost time
'Cause views and interactions never equal a like
You know the pain goes on and on and I still hate myself
Relationships fall apart, would never date myself
And I been wastin' all my time on people that don't give me nothin', but all ask for somethin'
Nirvana tatted on my arm
"Don't Panic" tatted on my wrist
I made way too many tracks that they all wonder how I did
But they're never gonna learn it, I been workin' since a kid
'Little Revive' blowin' up, but it still hurts to exist
[Pre-Chorus]
I don't know if I'm gonna make it
I swallow my pride like the pills I'm takin'
Swear all my life been too complacent
Just wanna be happier
[Chorus]
All these mood swings might break me
I can't sleep, my brain keeps on racing
Scared I won't survive
I been losin' sleep now
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back
I don't know what's goin' on nah
Change my mind, I'll try when I want that
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back
Mood Swings was written by Josh A.
Mood Swings was produced by Andrew Wade & Josh A.
Josh A released Mood Swings on Sat Jun 20 2020.