Monster

[Intro: Sample]
It was like a terrible nightmare
Even now, I sometimes wake from a dream and find myself shaking from the memory of it
I never forget when I first saw him
A man so monstrous, so unhuman
That I refuse to think it could ever happen again to anyone else
But who could be sure
Others have thought the same idea
Or [?], the law forgives it

[Verse]
I'm a monster, my conscience is filled with nonsense
That probably gon' leave you nauseous, I do shit 'cause I'm impulsive
Consequences get forgotten, feelings, they get lost
Get falsely accused for nothin', all these bitches, they want somethin'
They say they don't, they bluffin', please come end my sufferin'
Tell me that it's worth it, tell me I ain't worthless
Trust me, I ain't perfect, my trust, you gotta earn it
My heart is an empty burnin' furnace that's filled with lies you told me
And then the sky is openin', I'm hopin' God is helpin' it
And he can see past my selfish sins and find forgiveness
But what if God ain't real?
And I spent a couple years on a book that can't fulfill
The expectations written down in pages of the book
About a nigga in the clouds that created me for what?
Shit... I'on fuckin' know
I'm just livin' life with no goals I'm working towards
"You fake act hard, you fake ass fraud
You famous cause you made that same, that lame ass song
And you fade out fast, that's a played out song
But the one with no plays, that's a great ass song," but hey
The fuck am I sayin'? I'm barely famous
I'm sixteen and run a meme page
I'm lackin' confidence, it's obvious, got time for this here
But I run, I get scared, I got feelings, it ain't fair
They wantin' me to be honest but the truth ain't deservin'
They wantin' me to be flawless but I know I'm not perfect
They rushing me to drop music, they don't ever support it
They wantin' me to keep grindin' but I don't know where I'm goin', ayy

[Outro]
Fuck that deep shit, gotta get away
Fuck that deep shit, gotta get away
Fuck that deep shit, gotta get away
Fuck that deep shit, gotta get away