Monster

[Chorus]
It feels so very strange
That it could be this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why won't you stay?
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you?
This negativity
Keeps me feeling blue (Look)

[Verse 1]
Is it okay to feel like running away for days 'til somebody wanna say something? Huh
Is it ok to feel shitty and overwhelmed by everything and anything coming?
Is it okay to feel like I'm not quite okay? I been feeling pain, make it go away
Sleep is my escape, dreamin' it up to wake up and find I really mean nothing
I made the assumption that monsters ain't under my bed and it took me a minute to realize they're in my head
And they'rе giving me panic attacks and anxiety, I'm seeing red
I'm rеally just fed up it feels like I'm living in Hell and I'm walking around like I'm dead
'Cause my face is just lifeless, I'm fighting for everyone never will I ever be fought for in the end
I need a little bit of happiness why am I so inadequate? Demons I'm always battling, damn
They always be attacking shit and I ain't really havin' it, I'm always on my saddest shit, damn
I'm a motherfucking addict, I don't mean to be dramatic, no one ever really had to give a damn
The love that they be giving me a scam, goddamn, come and watch me pop another fucking Xan, shit

[Chorus]
It feels so very strange
That it could feel this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why won't you stay?
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you?
This negativity
It keeps me feeling blue

[Verse 2]
I feel so blue, I always lose
I be steady trippin', gotta tie my shoes
When I need you, you respond so slow
When you need me, I'm in the call like proto
I don't like to talk because I'm anti-social
You already know, though, zero friends in total
I don't even smile in the motherfucking photos
That I post on the 'Gram 'cause I don't give a damn about shit now
I can fucking disappear and everybody lit now
I'ma sit down, take a hit now
Every now and then, I take a mother fucking sip now
Grrt, pow, bumpin' Lil Tjay
Crying in the club on my goddamn b-day
Drive too fast on the goddamn freeway
Heart is up for sale, so I put it on eBay
He say, she say, they all fucking monsters
They say they your friends, but they always imposters
The only way that I'ma prosper is with zero friends on my roster
Someone call the doctor, my flow's too sick, I'm off-topic
Sucker for pain, but I got logic
When fake people wanna hop on my dick
And they stab my back and they talk they shit
And they talk they crap I just take they hits, damn

[Chorus]
It feels so very strange
That it could feel this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why won't you stay?
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you?
This negativity
Keeps me feeling blue

[Outro]
Doo, doo, doo-doo, doo
Doo, doo, doo-doo, doo
Doo, doo, doo-doo, doo