monsta

[Verse]
Whats the point of all this shit
I tried to change
Still the kid recording
Tryna guide the way
For that kid stuck on the corner
Couldn't find some safe
Deep inside my hoarded mind
Can't find some space

Right there on the border line of fine and crazy
I just want a hoe to pullup give me shine n braid me
I dont want nobody on me but its fine they praise me
I was always tryn get home but i ain't find my train

Be on my phone until it die
Im in my notes just pacing
Wanted solace but i sigh
And then im on my way to

Comfort
For a couple hours
Come home
Then I hit the shower

Its always this 1 road
I don't really know about it
I travel the unknown
Tryna keep my head up out it
Guess ill make some dumb songs
How i bleed, forget about it
I can't make no love songs
I don't know how love nobody

[Chorus]
What's the point of all this shit
I try to change (i tried, change)
I lie in the morning wonder why the pain
I can't afford to keep on mourning tryna rise today
What u do when all u knew just fly away (just fly, away)
Took it as a warning that our lives can fade
This always been important i just lost my aim

And so if feels forced ima walk away
I know losses is not gon break me
So, so often im lost and lately
Dont, hold off its a lot my brain be
Cold hot heart soft and im cautious of space
My rouge thoughts dont want no one all in my face
I know god tryna bring some light in my plate
Watch this ill turn this darkness into a flame

Feel like a monsta still my mom son
Tryna get dem years back i lost em
Im still tryna figure out if theres still more options
Eliminate my fears in the process
Im just hoping they can hear if they watching
I been feelin kinda weird i been off it
Still been living its been fierce but i walk with confidence
I look in the rear it gets all big

(Fucked up how it's always been)