Monday Morning Exercise 037 - What’s Crazy?

Not much that I’m not tougher than but stuck again
Mental health is Suffering
Probably need perscriptions but You know you can’t discuss it when
You came up in the projects where we were taught to ride it out
And hide emotions fo’ Momma give us something to cry about
That’s what we’re getting high about Shit happened in my house
My Pappy wasn’t happy He blew his fucking mind out
My grandma still lying ‘bout The cause of his passing
I guess she rather have a dead son Than one that’s a faggot
Still got some shit I’m unpacking Should fucking spit in your casket
Just learned some shit ‘bout
Your passing/ It’s hard forgiving you Daddy
They say men that grew up with
A lot of mental abuse naturally pass it on
Bout that an’t no fucking excuse
My —————told me bout all the nights
That you snuck in this room
Even at family gatherings
How fucking embarrassing
The moments I’m cherishing
Just ain’t Hitting the same
‘cause the love that you give me
He wasn’t getting the same
That’s why I sipped though the pain
Alcoholic just like you
Alcoholic just like your momma
This shit is a cycle
She thought toxic masculinity
Would mask and act as Remedies
How it Affected me?
Shit! I could rap like 10 of these
Your absence had me impressed with
Negus that was present
Fucking/ Looking for acceptance
Who what pussy for affection
Now my self esteem in question
I inherited the shit
Only therapist can switch
It gets buried as a fix
It gets buried with the kicks
With a whip/ with a Chain