Mixed Feelings

{Verse 1]
I'm hard to describe
Can't pick a side
I've spent my whole life switching
Between who to make proud
And who to let down
Wasting all my time wishing
I was more of one color
Less of the other
Deadlock and neither's winning
Try not to feel so different

[Pre-Chorus]
A Beijing girl met a bluegrass man
And here I am
In the middle of looking for a place to land

[Chorus]
With all these mixed feelings
Never really knowing where I fit
Mixed feelings
One foot in each door but can't get in
Still got so much to learn
It's a blessing and a curse to be like this
Having all these mixed feelings
All these feelings

[Verse 2]
I'm all over the map
Don't know where I'm at
Where I'm from and where I'm headed
If I squint when I smoke
And people make jokes
Then half of me gets offended
Least I'm getting a taste
Of more than one place
Keeping my options open
It's identity psychosis

[Pre-Chorus]
A Beijing girl met a bluegrass man
And here I am
Making my way trying to understand

[Chorus]
With all these mixed feelings
Never really knowing where I fit
Mixed feelings
One foot in each door but can't get in
Still got so much to learn
It's a blessing and a curse to be like this
Having all these mixed feelings
All these feelings

[Bridge]
Where do I belong
I'm never home, it's just a visit
Unsure of where I stand
And so I sit with indecision

[Chorus]
With all these mixed feelings
Never really knowing where I fit
Mixed feelings
One foot in each door but can't get in
Still got so much to learn
It's a blessing and a curse to be like this
Having all these mixed feelings
All these feelings
These mixed feelings
All these feelings