Mixed Feelings

[Verse]
I remember saying I love you baby
But when you're saying that you love me you was lying through your teeth
You're hiding from me that you want him you was keeping it discreet
But it's okay though you won't ever get the fucking best of me
I can't get over all this pain inside within
Remember you said that you love me but you wanted my best friend
Im getting shitfaced over you girl I was drinking wine and gin
I can't stop thinking bout you baby I been stuck in my abyss
I tried my best but i still can't get you back yet
You said you loved me on your insta but that shit got fact checked
When we were over you were showing no emotion
You said you didn't have time for me and i felt so broken
Can we just talk for once but not argue
You getting with my best friend bitch who are you
Cheating on me was a fucking mistake
But you the best to me and we don't even gotta debate, damn
Ay, you know I really fucking miss you
And I ain't even get to fucking kiss you
I said I'm sorry over and over but you ain't even fucking listening
I'm really sorry for what I fucking did to you
Fuck
I fell in love with a bad bitch on my mattress sipping activist
Hurt me said it was an accident it is not an accident i'm not having it
Held me down you played the devils advocate she a bad bitch
Been a sad bitch you can't help with therapy
Don't run away from me baby you don't gotta be scared of me
Fucking around with all these pills cause what the bitches say to me
I ain't a motherfucking xbox you can't fucking play wit me
I could feel all your affection when i coming towards you
When you said that i was attractive i was falling for you
You were the best i told you everything about me
I asked if you would ever leave and you said don't doubt me
I fell in love from the first time i met her
But these bitches always switched up like Bobinski's letters
I'm sick and tired of this rivalry
But now you got me going faceless Shiloh dynasty
These fucking blondes and brunettes just regrets
She leave me on seen but won't pull up to the scene yet
It felt like it was Yesterday when we met
Because it was she stayed a day and then she left
I fucking need a girl with all these qualities
They told me i should just move on but its move on that's stopping me
You said you really fucking loved me you was lying through your teeth
But i guess you was just an actor Grammy nominee
I'm fantasizing about how you could've touched me
You said you love a guy who loves you but you couldn't love me
Please come back baby you know damn well you can trust me
Blade hit the vein then I got right to the cutting
You think I'm grateful for the friendship that we have
But I've been waiting for a text it's been an hour and a half
Don't have a mans but you don't want me I ain't ugly was a cap
I rip my heart out on the mic my shit be beating on the track
Just as I think that we are getting pretty tight
I get left on delivered I've been waiting for a night
I been thinking bout you baby some might say that I'm obsessed
And My heart will take my breath it's like cardiac arrest
Remember times when I was calling you the best ay
But then you made me feel like I was just a friend
I've been lonely for a while talk to voices in my head
They keep repeating all the same fucking shit that you said ay
It's been an hour and a half of waiting for response
It's been 2 hours baby I'm just worrying that you are gone
She tell me i should stop the drugs and just get sober
Only takes about 3 pills and baby girl it'll be over