Misplaced Faith

[Verse 1]
When I was 5 years old
And I was scared to sleep alone on darker nights
I thought the monsters would all try to eat me
If they saw my open eyes
My mother taught me praying to my Maker would send angels to my aid
As a child, I learned that messages to Heaven were the way to keep me safe

[Chorus]
Throw me in the waves
Throw me in the ocean, I've been hopeless in this boat with all my shame
Throw me in the waves
And if I'm swallowed by a monster
I know God's here and I'll make it out okay

[Verse 2]
Then everything was wonderful and marvelous with God paving the way
I pushed myself to follow every message and commandment that He gave
And no one seemed to notice as my mental health slowly withered away
'Cause if you feel like you are trapped inside yourself, it has to be a test of faith

[Chorus]
So throw me in the waves
Throw me in the ocean, I've been hopeless in this boat with all my shame
Throw me in the waves
And if I'm swallowed by a monster
I know God's here and I'll make it out okay

[Verse 3]
I'm 22 years old, and I'm still scared to sleep alone on darker nights
'Cause when I needed God the most, He left me out for dead
He left my side
Maybe He's just a thing our parents made
Because it helps them to feel safe
But if He's real, one day I'll get to meet Him
Then I know just what I'll say

[Chorus]
Throw me in the waves
I was swallowed by the monster, and you disappeared
You don't deserve your place
So throw me in the waves
And I'd rather drown and die
Than have to spend all of my life with misplaced faith