Mirrors Edge (Interlude)

And that's a weird thing 'cause it's like .. it didn't it doesn't feel good to hurt people .. Like I felt no happiness from it .. its that when you're hurting so much .. or when I was hurting so much .. i- thought [?] that if I brought someone down there with me then I was not alone anymore .. but it doesn't work like that .. and so it-it didn't help me it didn't help them .. it-it it was- I'd say .. a disgusting hurt of my anger .. because now he's gonna' you know be sick .. that I hurt him .. I just .. I want what I used to be