Minutes and Hours

I don’t want to die and leave nothing behind
That bitch fucked with my head and fed me nothing but lies
My Nan died the same week so I was up every night
Wide awake in my thoughts still wondering why
I hear the same shit in my head like a hundred odd times
I try to say how I’m feeling but I’m breaking inside
And all this pain that I deal with is more weight on my mind
I barely eat so I can never keep this weight on my sides
Awake at 5 in the morning trying to say that I’m fine
Hate that I’m like this and ill probably be this way til I die
Remember taking so many pills I could of taken my life
Mistaking people that I trusted for some mates that were sly
Or a girl I thought I cared about for blades in my spine
I wanna see my mum be happy not see pain in her eyes
She just lost her mum and I can't comprehend what thats like
All I could do is try be there and say we’ll get through the night

Every minutes like an hour in a time like this
In a time like this
I was sinking then got out it now I’m back in this shit
And now I’m back in this shit
Every minutes like an hour in a time like this
In a time like this
I was sinking then got out it now I’m back in this shit
And now I’m back in this shit

I was lost on those bricks I couldn’t take your advice
I had my back to the wall with my face looking white
I don’t want my younger brother thinking “maybe ill try it“
He was there for me and thats probably what saved my life
If the tables turn I’m making sure he makes it alive
Ive buried members of my family still shaking and crying
At the wake wired coz I hadn’t slept for days at a time
I could feel my heart break yelling your name at the sky
Ate valium every time your face came to my mind
And I felt guilty for that but thats the way I survived
And I felt filthy for the fact I didn’t say my goodbye’s
My ex said I’m a piece of shit and maybe she’s right
This got me feeling like a weak cunt
At that time in my life I was numb for like three months
High every night but I was lower than my feet are
Trying to survive at the same time I’m trying to ease up

Every minutes like an hour in a time like this
In a time like this
I was sinking then got out it now I’m back in this shit
And now I’m back in this shit
Every minutes like an hour in a time like this
In a time like this
I was sinking then got out it now I’m back in this shit
And now I’m back in this shit