Mind Playin Tricks

I think my mind playin tricks on me sittin in a crucial state
Starin at a crystal ball I think my future’s great
Am I hallucinatin? Whats the use of debatin
You see the moves I’m makin
I ain't talkn bout the money, the clothes, or anything in between
Its funny you chose what many people would think
But I think beyond that, I’m tryna keep my eye on where the time’s at
Soon we expire and then we climb back
To where we came from, not the woman that we got our name from
I’m talkn bout the strange one, death
The shit that people look at with a closed heart
Permanent vacay without the fckn postcards
I ain't tryna be morbid, I just know I can’t afford it
Lookin at life like we don’t get deported
I'm feelin too illegal, me and my crew of people too cerebral
To get caught up in the root of evil
But im sayin live fast and die young
As if i forget, yo that chapter might come
Livin for the moment til this rapper life is done
But wheres the nuggets of the wisdom ii should pass to my son
To influence him, am i glued to the right type?
Quite hyper, yeah the flute of the pied piper serenades
Hold my breath while it marinates
Can't look medusa in the eye so im wearin shades
And out of habit im grabbin a drink
As i think i can take a sneak peak while she blinks
The sensation that i describe's what i been facin
C'est la vie its temptation
I'm 25 aimin for the mainstage
I forget that my favorite rapper died at the same age
Lordy lord some perspective lets live the message
I best give attention to the rest if
I wanna show growth, a whole host of things that i hold close
Separatin me from most folks
But every now and then my mind stays playin tricks
Lookin at the life like damn i was made for this
Sip more drankin til im bangin chicks
Strip pole naked tits
Soon enough i'll be layin stiff
Right up in the dirt reflectin yo my life was incredibly bright
What the fuck's my legacy like
I ain't sayin that its one or the other
I'm just sayin man its one of the other
What am i treatin my youth as a cushion for
I dont wanna push the door, gettin to the end
Start actin like im bush and gore
Demandin recounts, openin my mouth tryna speak out
Time flies ngga gotta peace out