Message To Myself

Always thinking bout the past

Traumatized the way i live and that's facts

Now I’m just a bitter fuck who can't learn to just relax

Overthinking drink the liquor make time go fast

I was 10....i was ten years old being bullied for the clothes of the day that i chose i don't get it

I just thought this how my life would go

No cards in my hands so I’m always at a fold

It was high school still wearing hand me downs

I was quiet. money didn't ever come around

I was running every pocket in the lost and found

Tryna buy myself a bite with money from the ground

Always losing my friends but

Its my fault I'm not the type to pretend but then i —

Learned how to move on with a grin

And all those bottled emotions just turned my life full of sin but -

I'm not the type to lose love, girl never

I still have love for Juliana and McKenna but

They're in the past now I moved on and its

My job to pass their legacy on

I done learned so much from the both of them

And the people came along from the ghost of them

They gave me peace throughout all my demons now its time to send a message to the voices yeah i gotta tell em

I still remember all the bullshit ive been through

(half bar) always have goals but they always fall through

Is this my last song i dont know you decide

Cuz im failing to create but you know that i try

I CANT TAKE NO MORE

I CANT DEAL NO MORE

I CANT FEEL NO MORE WHERE IS MY FREEDOM

I CANT SEE NO MORE

I CANT CHOOSE NO MORE

I CANT BREATHE NO MORE WHAT IF I NEED IT SO ....

GET THE FUCK UP