Merry christmas, edith

Merry christmas, edith

I don't wanna stay strong
I don't wanna fight now
Make it all go away
Make it all stop now

I just wanna stay up
Stay up all night now
I can see my husband's
At the car right now

Now I'm out in traffic
Now I'm on the freeway
I don't want a long life
I just want a screenplay

Am I supposed to feel good
Take him by the three way
I just want my baby girl to never wait a fucking day
And I don't want to stay strong

Hope my daughter's fucking set for life
In a cottage in the woods got a knife
[?] out all my brains no more
Mommy leave her in the Christmas store

Mommy leave until she stab no more
She wanted mommy not to hurt no more
Mommy leave until she stab no more
She wanted mommy not to hurt no more
Mommy leave until she stab no more
She wanted mommy not to hurt no more
Mommy leave until she stab no more
She wanted mommy not to hurt no more
Mommy eat pills cause she's sad no more
She wanted mommy not to smoke no more
Mommy eat pills cause she's sad no more
She wanted mommy not to smoke no more
Mommy eat pills cause she's sad no more
I told her mommy not to smoke no more
Mommy eat pills cause she's sad no more
I told her mommy not to smoke no more
And mommy cuts until it hurts no more
Don't want my mommy overdose no more
And mommy cuts until it hurts no more
Don't want my mommy overdose no more
And mommy cuts until it hurts no more
Don't want my mommy overdose no more
And mommy cuts until it hurts no more
She's yelling mommy don't hurt no more

She's yelling mommy doesn't hurt no more
She's 16 and running out the door
She don't want her in her life no more
Her new boyfriend makes her hurt no more

She's yelling mommy doesn't hurt no more
She's 16 and running out the door
She don't want her in her life no more
Her new

This is what she said

I don't want to stay strong
I don't want to fight now
Make it all go away
Make it all stop now

I just want to stay up
Stay up all night now
I can see my husband's
At the car right now

Now I'm out in traffic
Now I'm on the freeway
I don't want a long life
I just want a screenplay

Am I supposed to feel good
Take 'em by the three way

I wanted to ask me what love is
It's when you're breaking into pieces and you roll out of bed
And wake up early just to make them some tea
And maybe love is dropping your daughter off at the first day of school and taking her ice skating as soon as it starts to get cool out
And you put your jackets out before going out
And maybe love is telling your partner that they're not unlovable, they're not broken, and that they're still good
And maybe love is holding the ones around you when they're crying so hard they can't make out the words so you try to word it out with them
You tell them that you're right there with them
And when my daughter turns to me and asks me what love is I want to tell her the truth
That I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
What am I supposed to say to a face like that?
And how do I walk with grace because I was under the impression love was security
And that when you're at your lowest they help you get home, they help you find home, wherever home may be
It doesn't matter if it's concrete walls, a mattress in the middle of the floor, or the feeling of being in someone's arms when you've hit rock bottom
I don't know if I can tell her what home is because it's changing so much before my eyes
I'm just thankful that we're still breathing

And maybe love is packing up the bags when you know you have to you just don't have the words to explain it
And maybe love is watching a shitty Redbox movie you got at your local Walmart and having to wake up early to return it in the morning but your daughter wanted to see it so bad and you'd do anything for your baby girl

And I just hope that when I see your face again I'll be much older and I can tell you about the girl who should've taught you what love is because I want you to live better too
And whoever made you think it's something to be scared of
And the first boy that tells you that he loves you
I hope you don't freeze in place
Because the only "I love you" that you heard was right before someone hurt you

I just hope that they don't hurt you