Memories

[Chorus:]
I see the demons in the eyes of memories
Haunt my freedom, they despise my energy

[Verse 1:]
Turn back the clock, I'm almost twelve
Into this darkness, dare I delve?
All these things I wouldn't say before
Lay it all down on this dirty floor
My mind feels free or loose at least
So on these feelings, crowds will feast
Like my peers who beat my face
Now I hide so none can trace

[Chorus:]
I see the demons in the eyes of memories
Haunt my freedom, they despise my energy

[Verse 2:]
There was a girl much older than me
She was so fun and I thought she was pretty
Just a naive boy, she found me witty
And she thought it a pity that my life was shitty
Mom was abusive, I was in a new city
She was 19 and I was just a kiddie
Took me to her car and showed me a titty
I said "please stop" but she showed me no pity
Didn't know my brain would feel so dizzy
Never would recover, it happened too quickly
Said it was fine but the tremor still upended me
Addicted to women and then abused my family
Talk to the doc present day as he scanned me
Said "when it's dark, go ahead and take a xanny"
Planned out my life but nobody planned for me
Reach beyond strife but nobody stands for me

[Chorus:]
I see the demons in the eyes of memories
Haunt my freedom, they despise my energy

[Verse 3:]

Flash to the past to the first time I mentioned it
I was afraid but I thought it would help a bit
Given the fault from my glaring therapist
Took their default, held the blame for all of it
Bottled it inside, never spoke a word of it
Throttled down my pride, made myself a joke of it
Never could subside all that had awoke from it
The child in me died, now this mask has spoken it

[Chorus:] (x2)
I see the demons in the eyes of memories
Haunt my freedom, they despise my energy