Memoir of greyy

Two notes I haven't read, and my ego's feeling dead, good
Looping in my head, run away from what I said nah
Guard dogs and they brand new
No pit stops, had to make it through
No attention, 3p racks i'm running solo
I-I-I can’t move on cuz’ the last one was a no show
It doesn’t exist, we're no friends now
Gotta find my way to like it, simmer every minute
Yea, I can’t fake it I don’t have it must be nice, ain’t it?
Long nights sitting all alone I can feel the time wasted
I'ma turn around, flip it upside down
Need someone to hold it down
Need something to care about

And I could lie and say I'm fine bro
Erosion overtime, it’s just gon’ fall down
I need to cut off this perspеctive, feeling lost now
Metatron, god upon me, sеnd me inbound

Pull that stick out, I don’t keep it
I don’t understand why they all flock to the same thing, it don’t make sense
You where the fucking best
That I never had
They caught me out in public
Gotta run from what I said

Run away from the sign of connection
I know I need it
You can’t tell me that you don’t wanna see what i became
Yeah, I don’t wanna do a thing
But I'm expecting it slowly and slowly and slowly

Slowly and slowly and slowly
You showed me what it meant to be the one sometimes
In the eye of the light so I create what I saw
When the moments all connecting you understand what you are
Just the piece of this space nothing more than or less
How the dragon calls so sweetly but it has to meet it’s end
Do I really feel like I want this or is it just pretend?
Is it just pretend?